Weird mind.

Today is a weird day. Or today my mind is weird. Or okay I guess my mind always is more or less weird :P but still... Had quite a busy day at work. I´have also been busy looking for an apartment at every free moment. I'm starting get really stressed about finding a place. I love living with my flatmate and I'm really happy about continuing to do so, but we don't like the same areas in our beloved Copenhagen and that narrow our choices down quite a bit. At home my room still is not in order after the party. I've started working on getting rid of all the colourful spots that at the moment cover my floor. A nice left over from the confetti used for decorating. Reminder to self. no more confetti! And I know in the back of my mind that I should get some writing on my thesis done. It's not any weird things that are going on really. Sure there's a lot going on. Maybe some extra stressful things. But still. It's just this thing in my body and in my mind. It like I feel all numb and all restless at the same time. Of course I know some reasons for my restlessness. the annoying thing connected to that is the numb part. I'm getting restless for not being active enough. And I want to be active. I just can't make myself bother. And that is frustrating. But there's also something else. Maybe it's connected to the one year day coming up. On sunday it's one year since I moved here. And my life totally changed. And the change was in every way for the better. But at this point in my life I'm again in some sort of settled in stage, with the work and also the place we live (which is why I really want us to find a really great new place). I'm starting to question my life a bit. How do I want it to be? Also some resent events has gotten me thinking that maybe I do want things that I didn't expected that I wanted. If that makes any sense at all. Maybe it's just that there's a lot of changes at this time. A move. Finding new friends (even though I've met a lot of new friends, it's still in a new stage). Starting up a new semester in Copenhagen. The way I've done twice before, but this time things are different and I also want them to be. I don't want to do the Erasumus/exchange student life anymore. I want a life more connected to just living in Copenhagen, indefinatly. And I do feel like I'm on a path of getting that. I feel like there's a lot of good things about to start up. I'm for exampel so much looking forward to starting with capoeira next week, both for the activity and the people that are starting. But there's also complications to these new things. Some maybe because of me and others because of other reasons. But really. I don't know. I have a weird feeling today and I don't know if it's beacuse of all of this or if it's just one of these days when you feel weird. I have no answer just a feeling. And I hope that it's the cold in my body that makes the feeling this passiv. I hope that I can turn it around into acitveness and use the feeling for change to the better. Honestly. Why shouldn't I? Why should I feel like this? It's stupid. I have wonderful life. I have wonderful old friends in Copenhagen and all around Europe. I have met a lot of great new people. I am smart, fun, social, active and fucking hot so there's no reason at all to why I should have the most amazing life ever. Of course not every hour of every day. But in the big picture. For sure. Just fucking amazing in Copenhagen!