I still belive.

Sometimes you get news that are just hard to take in. News that feel so unexpected that you don't really now even how to start sorting out all the thoughts and feelings that are flowing over you like a huge wave. Of course you realise that this time is not about you and that all those feelings of sadness for your own reasons should be put aside and that the people actually in the centre of the action are the ones that should be considered. But it's hard when that big sadness hits you and the reasons for it are so many and among them is of course a wish for happiness for people that you care about.

I got these kind of news today and I don't know what to do. I got the news that a couple really close to me are breaking up. I didn't expect this at all. This couple was for me one of the reason for believing in love and in functional relationships. They seemed to have that balance between their life together and their own lives figured out. They seemed to care for each other and show it. And maybe they did. But apparently it wasn't enough. Apparently something was missing. I love these people, they are amazing persons both of them. And therefore these news makes me sad on so many levels. I'm sad that the image of love that they gave me turned out not to work. But more importantly i'm sad that they are sad. Even though this is a common decision it is of course a loss that needs to be mourned. And also I am sad because it might mean sort of loosing one of them. Which really really sucks. And I feel stupid being sad, i'm not the one breaking up. But I am and I can't help it. But I still believe in love. For them. For me. For everyone.