Sense or sensibility.

We are all different. In the way we approach life. In the way we deal with the things we meet on our journeys. In the way we deal with the people that cross our ways. I think most of us can be divided in to base our decision on sense or sensibility; do you make your choices with your mind or with your heart?

I choose with my heart. I always have. I can reason around things. Think a lot, some times too much, over what to do, what choice to make. Good rational thinking. But in the end, what I base my choices on, is what I feel in my heart.

I sometimes call this the crash and burn method, because in many cases a big crash and a lot of burning is the end result. But to me, the worst thing would be to regret the things I didn't try. And the road down to crash and burn is filled with great adventures.

Sometimes I know that the road I'm on most likely will end with a crash. At some point down that road, it hits me. I can't explain it, I just know. I just know there is no way this can end well. Does that make me turn around? To take another road? So far I haven't.

I would like to think that I at least learn from the past. That I don't take the same damned road twice. But honestly, I'm not totally sure that I can say that either. I do think that I'll try to stand in front of the same road again. And I do think that I have experiences that could help me handle the situation better the second time around. But if I would avoid that road just because of fear for another crash? No, I don't think I will.

Maybe this makes me stupid. Or naive. Maybe this is the reason to that my life some times is screwed up, and that I am single, with my fair amount of heart brake in my luggage. Maybe I do need to be a little bit more rational, and not only follow my heart. I can accept that. But I can not accept people that are the total opposite. People that only follow the rational, the sensible. People that are so careful that they don't even try when the chance comes along. Chances for good things don't come very often, so how can you ration away something that could be good? I am honestly asking, because that just doesn't make sense to me.