Beautiful snow.

I walked through the dark and cold January night, late last night or maybe early this morning. Heading home, towards the warmth of my bed. The snow was falling over Copenhagen. Heavy, beautiful snow was covering every part of the city. Real snow, the beautiful kind. The kind of snowing that appears when it is really cold. Big, dry, snowflakes where falling, so many that they are covering the whole sky when you are looking up. The intensity of the falling is great, but the flakes seems to hoover more than actually fall. And the snowflakes land on the ground, on you, but not with the sticky wetness that they have when it is around 0 degrees. In the great cold they are almost dry, they are like feathers falling through the sky. And it is beautiful. And to be part of that beautiful makes me feel full of grace, and always makes me smile.

The finder.

Some times it scares me how easy it is to find people, and find out things about them on the internet. With Facebook and Google it is possible, at least for me, to find almost anyone, just by having a first name and some very basic information. I found one friend on Facebook by googeling his first name together with the country he's from. That way I found his blogg, and there I got the full name and could easily find him on Facebook, where he had a open page. And all of the sudden you can know more about someone you just met then you might want to. Then the question is when do you revel what you know? And of course, can you even trust that what you know actually is true? After all what you've seen is just one, electronic presentation about the person, where the person has been in control of what is presented.

Fun.

Something funny for fans of Swedish rock star Dregen and the Millenium books/movies by Stieg Larsson. Even though it would have been hilarious with Noomi Rapace/Lisbeth Salander as the bride, I think she looks so much like Dregen.

I like.

I really like this blog. I love the way she writes. So much that I wish it was me. Damn it.

Long day.

9 pm and I'm exhausted. After waking up at 4.30 this morning I feel that it's an acceptable feeling. And not just waking up early, but getting ready and looking nice, flying off to Oslo, spending 3 hours at the airport waiting for a meeting (and 3 hours is a perfectly great time to work up a pile of nervousness), having a meeting about a job that seems really really interesting trying to make a great impression, waiting some more, flying back home, cleaning the apartment and then rightfully collapse on the couch. As a Dane would say, puha.

Now crossed fingers about the job and getting ready to sleep.

Sick. Again.

I'm not really getting along fully with my body lately. After problems with my knee and some other stuff during the fall I now seem to be getting sick again and again. I started the year with fever and then never really got well. I have been tired, my nose is running and have just not felt totally well. And now, when I am supposed to start my new interesting course, the fever is back, with stomach pains as company. Just my luck. I don't know how many times I have gotten sick for new starts. For new jobs and new courses. A bit strange actually. It is frustrating to be stuck at home, missing out on the thing that you've been looking forward to start with, as well as missing all the introductions and then having to spend the first days super confused trying to catch up. But the one thing I have learned during my years is that there are no short cuts to getting well. You can't cheat on you body. And the one thing that you do need to keep on living is a healthy body. So that's the priority. Health comes first.

But I do very much hope that I will feel good enough tomorrow.

Family time.

My family means the world to me. We don't always get along. Some times I feel like I am an alien and that they don't understand me at all. Some times I wonder how people can be so different but still have some kind of basic togetherness that ties us to each other. And some times we just have a lot of fun. Since we are spread all over nowadays it's not that often that all of us get together. But we actually managed for a few days last weekend. Some beers, talks and laughs with my brothers in Cph was really great!

A start.

Even though I am not a fan of New Years Eve-celebrations I can't help to feel that a new year sets a new start in a way. To contemplate over the events of the previous year and look forward to new adventures in the upcoming one is quite natural I think, at least it something I can't keep myself from doing. Around the new year is not the only time I look in to my life, where I've been and where I'm going, but I for sure usually also do it around this time.

My feeling about 2009 is that it is an old snake skin that that I am now stepping out of. And the sensation I get when doing so is a great one. There are still some old scales that are stuck on my new fresh skin. The will eventually fall off as well. I am looking forward to leave them all behind, but all in it's own time. What's most important is that it is just a skin that I have stepped out of. The core is me. I sometimes forget. I get lost under old scales, ripped and scared by weather and wind. But I am still there, underneath it all. And I can rise again, beautiful and strong. I need her now. The beautiful and strong one. I need her for 2010 because I have decided this year is going to be my year.

One year ago I had high hopes for 2009, I had a good feeling. Nothing turned out in any way I expected or even would have guessed. In some ways it was one of my toughest years ever. But I've also had some amazing times and met some amazing people and made all these great new friends. One year ago I couldn't even imagine the things I would experience in just one year. And I find that absolutely amazing. And I am sure that I can't in no way guess or imagine all the experiences that 2010 will bring. The only thing I know is that it is important that I get that beautiful, strong me out, and bring her along for the ride. We are ready to embrace the adventures that will come!